Saturday, December 26, 2009

The week(and the year) concludes;

And I'm left with the Joy of all that was yesterday,
and the unforgiving reality of feeding the homeless again today!

Joy though, it'll last well pass the moment you've forgotten about it, and in that, my heart isn't as heavy as it was when the power went out, but in truth, I'll always find love wherever I am, so with that(and the powers return), I'm happy still...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

1st of all, the movie comes out this week nationwide;

and 2ndly:

Very poetic and soothing, true enough, but without words that comfort, how can a man get his viewpoint accepted fully? And in your words, I can see that you heard(saw) what I was saying, so we were all blessed!

And yes, having a relationship that solidifies your basic human needs, without undoing the years of independence can be quite a challenge, when most are under the impression that the only way to hold another, is to contain them, in some symbolic way, that’s easily explained to friends and family.

And in that, I know that under the mistletoe, a few will be tempted to change their direction, just for a second of that hallmark ideal of a relationship, but please, remember that almost all those tears shed, are directly related to surrendering into what seemed good and pleasing to others, even though deep inside, you knew that the time had come, to move past just wanting to come again, this time!

Me, it was a great weekend, and even though Jean had her security detail in my dossier again.
Eugene wasn't long enough, nor did many people come out for the "Festival of Lights".

Next time I'm singing in Redding...

Monday, December 21, 2009

Things even I believe(author unknown);

"I Believe;

That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
That we don't have to change friends,
if we understand that friends change.
That no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and you must forgive them for that.
That true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

"I Believe;

That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. That it is taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
That we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

"I Believe;

That either you control your attitude, or it controls you.
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done,
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
That money is a lousy way of keeping score. That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

"I Believe;

That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief. That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for whom we become. That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret,
for it could change your life, forever.

"I Believe;

Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours, by people who don't even know you. That even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you ~ you will find the strength to help.
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

"I Believe;

What lies behind us and what lies before us are infinitesimal matters, compared to what lies between, and within us."

Saturday, December 19, 2009

A holiday story(via Terri) edited;

A sick man turned to his doctor as he was preparing to leave the examination room and said, Doctor, I’m afraid to die. Can you tell me what lies on the other side?
Very quietly, the doctor said, I don't know!

You don't know? You're a Christian man, and you don't know what's on the other side? The doctor was just then holding the handle of the door; and on the other side of that door, came the sound of very excited, scratching and whining. And as he opened the door, a dog sprang into the room, and leaped upon him with an eager show of gladness.

Turning to the patient, the doctor said, did you notice my dog reaction? He's never been in this room before, and he didn't know what was inside. Actually, he knew nothing except that his master was in here, and when the door opened, he sprang in to me, without any fear whatsoever. So, I may know a little of what’s on the other side of death, But I do know one thing for sure, I know my Master is there, and that is enough.

So as you venture up and over hill and dale this holiday season, remember this:
May you trust God openly, that you are exactly where you are meant to be every moment between now, and when your steps are no longer your own.

Monday, December 14, 2009

1st of all, the movie comes out this week nationwide;

and 2ndly:

Very poetic and soothing, true enough, but without words that comfort, how can a man get his viewpoint accepted fully? And in your words, I can see that you heard(saw) what I was saying, so we were all blessed!

And yes, having a relationship that solidifies your basic human needs, without undoing the years of independence can be quite a challenge, when most are under the impression that the only way to hold another, is to contain them, in some symbolic way, that’s easily explained to friends and family.

And in that, I know that under the mistletoe, a few will be tempted to change their direction, just for a second of that hallmark ideal of a relationship, but please, remember that almost all those tears shed, are directly related to surrendering into what seemed good and pleasing to others, even though deep inside, you knew that the time had come, to move past just wanting to come again, this time!

Me, it was a great weekend, and even though Jean had her security detail in my dossier again. Eugene wasn't long enough, nor did many people come out for the "Festival of Lights".

Next time
I'm singing in Redding...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Going out on a limb

No matter how many times we think about it, the truth remains that what we really want, is another who cares enough about us to listen. A one who delights in our company, enjoys our subtleties, and embraces the outline of our convictions.

Should that not be what you think, I understand.
But I thought it was worth sharing.

So, whereas I am human, Ideally, I like meeting the same; Someone within whom lives a creative soul and a loving heart. Not prone to anger or disruption, yet willing to express an opinion that doesn't make apologies! Great looking on the inside would be a plus. Anyone can buy and apply make up, so the container is not as important as that which it contains!

Surely my eyes can see and my hands will feel, but always when the road grows rocky, it is better to have a good person by your side and not just someone who is good looking! A willingness to get your hands dirty is a plus.
As is a love for life and a willingness to move beyond the past into the present!

In the between though, I really just like being myself....

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Nothing makes a difference, w/out change(ing) too;

Sure enough, pain has no off season and yes,
false friends will at least do it to you while facing forward.

But more often than not, it is we, who just need a better perspective on our own lives, needs and desires, in order see more clearly, those in front of us, who really can make a holistic difference in our futures, and move directly pass,
those who never did, in the past!

Church now, and then Eugene for lunch.

Much love to the strong, and more than just gentle passion to those who are feeling weak this weekend. Remember though, there is a better way, but you'll never find it if you're unwilling to change the direction of your longing.

As for you, chin up!

She's watching you,
and she will become You, no matter what you tell her differently....

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Great questions all;

And yet, how do I answer them?

Surely, it's much better to be loved, than to have a one who can only smell your lust. And yes, as long as the sun shines, in order to enjoy another, it will always be better have them want the inner you, rather than need to be within you.

But, some just are really needy!

For me then, on the other side of the upcoming holiday, it's just easier to work through the week, than it is to worry about the soon to be, weekend, but then again, I like change. Which isn't my way of saying I can't be still, more than it's my real desire, to not become stagnate.

For you, and for all those like yourself, even I, and not that it has to be hard to know the difference(s), between a man who wants you, while he so busy explaining why you're just what he's looking for. But try this; realize that what he's looking @, might not be you at all. For when his hands are upon you, and his lust is in front of you, how is it that you're even in his natural view? Now that's a better question, than any answer I can provide.

Life, like love has more to do with how you feel, than, how you feel.
If you get my overall meaning!

Yes, even I love how another looks, but then again, even I know that when the rains pour down, even the most durable top soil can be washed away, under the pounding!

Love yourself, and others will want too as well.

Love your outer appearance, and even I'll seek to impale you on my manly desire, while just as easily forgetting that the real you isn't just something that I behold, as it is a someone that I affectionately, empirically, eternally, hold.

And on that note, off to the studio.

Which, if I didn't mention it before, provides me with a means to tell where it is any, and everyone is listening from(internet streaming is like that). So to say that you listened over the weekend(s) past, only reveals that between us, for you, there's an unnecessary need to say what isn't necessarily true.

What a shame that is.

But then again, it could be the reason why he used the drapes
instead of a warm cloth...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Just for the hope that lingers within;

"Tell me you don't sleep at night, I know
Because of how things have been
Tell me how you just don't trust your life to someone

Don't trust that love can win
Just as sure as God lives in my heart I'll say
Take heart, it won't say this way

If there's one thing you can count on
If there's one thing you can know for sure
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

I'm sure it's hard to be where you are now
Won't say I've been there before
But I'll be at your side in silence
Words are wasted before a broken heart
Where I've failed in the past to be there for you
You'll find this truth comin' through

If there's one thing you can count on
If there's one thing you can know for sure
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change, oh yeah
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

Oh, don't give up,
Well, I've seen some hard things
I never thought that I would ever smile again
Holdin' on when I feel half-hearted
I keep my faith without a way to explain it

'Cause I believe it won't always be like this everyday
Hold on, and trust what I say
If there's one thing
If there's one thing

If there's one thing God has promised
Things are gonna change,
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

Things are gonna change

Gotta have a little faith
Maybe add a little trust
Add a lot o' love
You see your gonna rise above the things that are so rough
'Cause we have a hope
Things are gonna change"


Bryan Duncan

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I've also learned that:

The beauty of caring, isn't so much in being the one cared for, or about even. For the beauty of caring is how it reminds me of my own humanity, and grace. And as the world spins presently underneath us, that's a good feeling that can't be readily packaged, and/or found locally!

Anyhoo, busy is what you do, and I'm sure your life's still a hand full right now, but, maybe one day, when you've backed away from those flashing lights that blind you still, I know you'll find more than enough time to share a moment and that hug, which will warm more than both of our lives.

Me, I'll continue to live with the eagerness which keeps us both tethered, though disconnected in this moment, for I know the future awaits us, in the distance unseen!


So be blessed my busy one.


And yes, I miss your voice(words) too....

Friday, November 06, 2009

In the distance

That has grown between us, I'm still stuck with wondering what you're thinking. Stuck with wondering if this is a barrier you're erecting, or just an extended seperation, until you can come to terms with that part of yourself, that you've yet to reveal to me. Still, I do think about you my reluctant one.

Wondering what the weather is like around you. If the dog(cat) is happy, things that I can only imagine, but, I like to imagine what life is like outside of my own, but still, I wonder about you.

Well, we have Red Rain(Christian Rcck band from New Zealand) coming in today around 4:30, concert @ 6:00, so I have a busy day ahead, but before I lost myself in my own world, I just wanted to walk across the bridge to your own and say hello...

Saturday, October 17, 2009

sí haría una diferencia?

So yes, I live in the Rogue Valley, and more often than not, I’m on the 5 heading south out of the mountains, if not but to just to remind myself that large green covered hills are walls of nature, but still, walls nonetheless!

And, thinking in the distance, the one thing that I always recall about a good friendship, is the sound of water. The rushing of a stream or the splatter on an uneven surface, each of these refresh and recharge the water, which is to me, is what most connections are missing, even as it begins anew for some.

So no, I’m not the next guy in a series, or a variation on the themes the last one employed either, and in that I think , may live the key to a different outcome for us both!. Unless of course, you’re looking to repeat what created the void that made this meeting possible, and in that case, there’ll be no need to write me back!

In the between, please enjoy the week as it unfolds for you….

Friday, October 09, 2009

Reality requires understanding,

and when we miss a B/Day, or forget to call after stating that we would, sometimes, feelings get disturbed.

As for myself, if I'm not sure a person is married, or expecting,
it helps, when they tell me, or I think to ask them myself!

All of which brings me back to reality,
a place that w/out understanding is very stark indeed!

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Life(inspired by you!);

Has your name all over it!
And yes, life is a neutral element in it all!

Water isn't harsh, or soft, it's just water.

Circumstances obviously will affect the outcome of things,
but life just exists, we humans, we ramp it up, or tear it down
as we move about.

Me, I see life as a canvas.

Brush in hand, I'm just trying to paint you into a beautful
sunrise,or a placid lake side, enjoying the birds,
maybe even holding hands.

Mostly though, I'm awaiting the moon tonight.
She promised to look in on you on her way by.....

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Monday, and I was thinking about choice;

Indeed, when you can, most everything you want can be yours, but the choice isn't so much about the moment, as it is the thoughts that follow after.

Me, I just like what I like.
Like whom I enjoy.
Choose to do those things,
be @ those locations,
share those emotions(and more),
as it enhances my global experience!

Yes, there are other ways to accomplish the same results.
And yet, me, I choose what pleases me most.

Like you....

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Closer friends, produce better results.

Sometimes,
we need to move ahead of the circumstances,
by allowing ourselves to separate from the past,
freeing the future to take hold of the here and now!

As for myself,
changing seasons
always awakens the desire
to see myself more clearly.

You, I wish the same result.

Beautiful(to me) is more than a word;

Not sleeping again last night:


Love
Like air,
knows only
the inhalation of itself.

Me,
me,
I breath deeply!

Mostly
because
anything
less is death,

But
also
because
that's what I choose.

Life!

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Most assuredly I am;

Happy & Secure
Confident & Cheeky
Pretty straight forward & Independent
Successfully an Optimist
Spontaneous & Capricious
Open-minded & Real

Unfortunately(for some);
I really enjoy Laughter
And I absolutely love it when people make me laugh!
And people with a quick wit and a fast mouth, don't always excite me.
Luckily, traveling and experiencing new places and people does though.
Also, I’m a good listener & An avid conversationalist
With good Intellect & Romantic fantasies galore!

What I require(& Desire) is;
Honesty & Integrity
Validity & Compassion
Thoughtfulness & Consideration
Adequate Chemistry & Good personal hygiene is a must!

And whereas I have a lot to share,

I'd love to experience another I can look into, and learn from.
I know, but life really is so short,
and there's so much more to appreciate,
when you respect and enjoy another person.

Me, going into the new week,
I'm looking forward to experiencing a person
who's enough like me(but different) to enjoy all of that, & more.
And yes, we're more than just mySpace affiliated,

But everyone needs a gentle reminder.

Even me!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

The Way a Christian should Love:

1 Corinthians 13

13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, [1] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; [2] 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Superficial Relationship & Stress

Are two things that I've been wondering about lately.

And yes, these thoughts have a lot to do with the fact that a "past" friend allowed herself to be turned into the Singapore version, of an American serviceman's housewife, but I think, more than the fact that he grew to hate her himself, she also was lost in this world of deception.

Not so much because she was $20,000.00 worth of extra parts and pieces, but more so because in playing this part(role), she had lost her own heart, her own place in the universe, and in that, who wanted "her" really?

Me, I counsel many couples who claim that their partner(s) have lost that loving feeling, or that the intimacy isn't what it used to be, when in truth, what's missing(or discovered) is the person, that the other had believed in, fell in love with, gave themselves over to, wasn't the essence of the person, but just a role they were willing to play, but now, no longer would they perform it freely!

Superficial relationships, whether they be about age, or money, or pure physical lust, in the end, only cause problems for each of the participants. Sure, I know you think you can turn it off and on at will. And I'm sure that you still believe that you're the only one who knows that you're lonelier than your smile reveals, but for me, what with summer coming to a close, I'm just going to keep my closet set on maximum clean, and wish that you would also do the same.

He's only going to reject you in the end,
just like all the others before him did, and, for the same reason!

So why put up this false self?
Why even put up with this false sense
of what kind of woman, you really are?

Be you.
Be proud of you!
Be someone you too can love.

Me, I'll be on sabbatical until the 2nd. of September.
Feel free to call if you're in the area.
Otherwise, at least wear modest clothes until the sun retreats.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Cracked Wide Open(by Nicole Luongo):

"Slowly
over time
piece by piece
my heart
was
cracked wide open
by your hollow words
manipulative lies
and
Oscar-worthy guise

It took me a long time
too many years
to get wise, to realize
I am - and will always be -
a prize

The irony is -
we've both been cut
you were sliced open
by a scalpel
cancer
the cause of your pain - removed;
your stitches will heal

I was cracked wide open by you -
my heart's cancer
the never-ending pain
is all too real

The pen is my scalpel
words are my stitches
because
this wide open crack
that is now my heart
desperately needs to heal."

3/19/09.


For,
as I always seek to remind you,
chasing(or being chased by) vanity
always leads to less than the beauty I offered you!

Friday, August 07, 2009

Rumi said(and words to take into the weekend);

"...And, just the moment
when you are all confused...
leaps forward a voice...
'hold me close,
I am Love,
I am always yours'..."

Therefore:

Heat is
fiery
red
hot
passionate

Love is:
forever
patient
kind
strong.

heat
plus love
equals
True Romance.


Which is better w/friends!

Friday, July 31, 2009

Yesterday

Love,

not unlike the sun itself is more than just warm,
more than just consistent,
more than just above you,
always looking down.

For love is,
and in that,
your assurance is more than just hope itself!

Me,
I'm just happy
your happier still.....

Monday, July 20, 2009

What if you used your imigination(s) to help others?

"The Italian Tomato Garden

An Italian man lived alone in New Jersey.
He wanted to plant his annual tomato garden,
but it was very difficult work, as the ground was hard.

His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison.

The father wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:

Dear Vincent,

I am feeling pretty sad, because it looks like I won't be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me, like in the old days.

Love, Papa

A few days later he received a letter from his son:


Dear Pop,

Don't dig up that garden.
That's where the bodies are buried.

Love, Vinnie

@ 4 a.m the next morning, FBI agents and police arrived and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.

That same day the father received another letter from his son:

Dear Pop,

Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now,
That's the best I could do under the circumstances!

I love you,

Vinnie"


Yes, in this we see the creative genius of a one who has much humor, and uses his circumstances to bring about a wanted desire by another, and yet, using only his words, change is manifested.


You, if you really stopped squandering your resources on reluctance and denial, even you could do such a wonder for another, but 1st., you'll have to accept the fact that circumstances do not dictate outcome(s).


Words dictate, and in that way, your efforts are increased;

genesis 1:14

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Why is it that you can't find(or hold onto) Love;

If you are not aware of who you are,
You therefore can not be loved.

For in not knowing ourselves,
we will be fear.

In love we expand,
in fear we shrink.

In fear we become closed,
in love, we flower completely open!

In fear we doubt,
in love we trust.

In fear we become lonely,
in love we never disappear.

In love we admire the trees, birds, clouds, sun,
and all the stars that live within us.

Whereas in fear, we disregard all that we should surrender to,
and only give ourselves over the darkness that love abandons!

Love is when you have the desire to know your inner self,
and in that way, all can love you too, no matter the contents!

Fear, as I've said so often before, is not your friend.
Love on the other hand, is the friend that you've always wanted become.



Be blessed then as the weeks ahead unfolds all around you,
and remember, love is the free gift that no matter how you pay,
is yours to keep, no regardless what anyone else has to say about it.....

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Firewerks and other thought(s);

Though this day reminds us of the birthing and subsequent Independence gaining of the United States of America.

Are you celebrating you're own personal freedom(s)?
Are you even free?

Of course, please, have a happy and safe holiday weekend with your family and friends, and please pray for our troops abroad, and those still able to be close to home, but also, take a moment and remember the cost, the continued sacrifice, and reflect on all the work that's still left to be done!

Happy national holiday.

But honestly, are you truly free?

Friday, June 12, 2009

Take this to bed w/you;

"We were laughing in a daydream
With the world beneath our feet
And the sun smiled on the water
Where the sky's and the ocean meet

We were spellbound
Ohh spellbound

We were listening down on the rainbow
As the leaves fell to the ground
Whispering as they tumble
And the wind laughed at the sound

We were spellbound
Ohh spellbound

We were children in a garden
Where the flowers kiss the sky
And the birds sang out in wonder
As the day went sailing by

We were spellbound
Mmmm spellbound
Ohhh spellbound
Mmmm spellbound
Ohh spellbound"


Robin Trower

Monday, June 01, 2009

I loved her because?

Perhaps like me, you have an ex?
And maybe even like me, you wonder how and why you ever married(or dated)
that particular person, but then again, maybe you don't.

Me, I loved her for many reasons, but today,
I was reminded of the most compelling.

Words.

Words was something we shared.
Three sons and lots of spanish champagne as well,
but mostly, she inspired me creatively with her words.

Not all of which she appreciated at the time.

Nonetheless;

I was struggling with a riff, and she provided this retort:
Perhaps she says, your not so deep, as the world is so shallow(?)!

And in all honesty, I agreed!

As for myself, I realized she was right.
Not about my depth so much,
but damn, there are some shallow folks amongst us.

Me, I love her still.
For words will always hold us together,
but in all honesty, I'll never love another without them.

For words are what we speak into each other,
when all else has failed to heal the rift that exist
between those in whom we comprehend
and the shallow few that take
up the rest of our day.

Thanks ex.

Hope your day ended as good as mine.....


Foot Note:

Maybe it's true, nobody loves the ones they leave behind.

But me, I don't feel that way.

Sure, there are a few I hated in the end, but in all honesty, love is not a choice, so much as a conviction. And me, once I accept that as the reality within myself, the love never goes away, or completely dissapears.

And odd how many private notes I received from people who couldn't relate.

And yet, to some, love is a feeling.
Which it's not, but that's not the point.

I loved Jan 1st. then Marcia.
Pamelynne I married!

True love never goes away.
And if you ever felt it, you knew that already....

Monday, May 25, 2009

Time((outside the gypsy flies away)?);

Time, not unlike love,
is an abstraction that only the person(s) experiencing either
can know for sure what it means,
or how it relates to the reality all around them.

Questions then,
not unlike the answers that surround them,
are subject to our interpretation and/or perspective,
which makes it harder still to distinguish darkness,
from a mere shadow!

As for myself, time therefore is irrelevant.

For in living pass the past,
I have used it all, already.

Best just to breath
and continue on the sojourn
into (the)tomorrow my friend(s)…

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Me, I've always liked the concept of What If

What if:

"If love came to you,
Light and silent,
like a butterfly,
would you even notice?
Or would you continue searching for something better?"

What if;

"If love came to you in a friendly, constant way
Like a flower or plant you grow and cultivate yourself,
would you see it for all that it could become?
Or would you walk on past
still searching for the bells and whistles?"

What if;

"If love came to you fast and explosive,
Like the fireworks on 4th of July...
would you walk away
wanting to light yet anothers spark?
or could you work at keeping the spark alive
when the flame begins to smolder?"

"What if;

Love came with me, strong and true,
wanting to be with you
but knowing
right now we can not?

Would you wait for me?
Or would you turn to another closer by location,
though our global connection still remains?"

As for myself,
whereas life is a giant what if,
me, I'm constantly waiting.

And in that, I think the best is yet to come.....

Sunday, May 10, 2009

You know how I love you(?);

And you're not sure why?

Well, on this day, perhaps you should consider why
others are unable to love you in the way(s) that I do,
and in that, you'll understand why.

For me, love is the reality of anothers being.
Not how they look,
nor how the feel,
or even, how they feel next to me.

Love, not unlike a mother,
is an entity, that fulfills a promise that in actuality,
we have no control over, for it was prgrammed from that start!

You know how I love you?

How my love radiants all around and within you?

This kind of love I give because it is not mine to hold on to!

You, you I love you because in doing so,
I complete the promise that came with your birth.

Not that I was you father
though I am.

Not that I'm your mother,
though, I often am that too.

You,
you know how I love you?

You,
you I love w/out reservation.

Which is the promise of birth,
even if your mother didn't get the memo.....

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Oddly enough,

No matter how many times we think about it, the truth remains that what we really want, is another who cares enough about us to listen. A one who delights in our company, enjoys our subtleties, and embraces the outline of our convictions.

Should that not be what you think, I understand.

But I thought it was worth sharing....

Sunday, April 12, 2009

It has been confirmed, today(everyday) He is risin!

Me, I am blessed by the day, and the worship and teachings at church as well, so my heart, my heart is filled with Joy right now. And you, how are you today?

Often of course, I wonder about you, and wish that you would write more, and yet, I know you're busy, so I smile anyway.

Be good as you go today, and remember, the next man, even if he isn't me, he should be as good to you, as I (am)would have been, so please, choose wisely, and react, accordingly....

Thursday, April 09, 2009

And Yes, April arrived a few days ago,

And as I started work in the gardens, began to clean up the train track lay out, and plotted a strategy for the coming season, me, me I looked back over the past winter and all that wasn't completed from my last year here in the valley, and yet, I found reason(s) to smile:

As the sun returns, and the grasses begin to burn,
me, me I'll still have you.

And though you've married another and you both have a new baby to enjoy me, me I still have your friendship!

And though the economy is forcing you to flower into the pixie you should have always been, still, when you went home, thousands of miles away, I knew how much you missed me, and me, me, I still have you near.

And of course, no matter the number of pretty boys calling, or those who chase you around the car show circuit, in the end, as the day concludes, you're always alone(save for the children), and in that way, I still have you too!

Many a friend, from Spokane to Paris Hobbs, to Alberta, and beyond, keep me connected, keep my words infected with love and joy and bliss and truth, that as I looked out over the gardens I'll plant this year, I knew one thing was surely to come to pass during the season that sun returns to the valley, me, me I'll be on the road a lot this year, and as I stop to rest, I truly hope you'll be there when I call to say that me, me, I'm right outside, come, let's play while the sun shines brightly, upon us both.

And who knows, maybe this is the year that changes it all?
Me, me I can only hope and wait with glee.....

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

H20

Contained within you is strength enough to fight for victory,
yet gentle nonetheless, to wipe the tears from a child's cheek.

Enduring enough to withstand any crisis, and yet,
caring still to mend the broken hearted amongst us.

Faithful enough to stay,
when everything(one) else has
left, or been lost.

And in that, true friendships are realized!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I believe it was James Brown who said;

This is a man's world,
this is a man's world
But it wouldn't be nothing,
nothing without a woman or a girl

You see, man made the cars to take us over the road
Man made the trains to carry heavy loads
Man made electric light to take us out of the dark
Man made the boat for the water,
like Noah made the ark

This is a man's,
a man's, a man's world

But it wouldn't be nothing,
nothing without a woman or a girl

Man thinks about a little baby girls and a baby boys
Man makes then happy 'cause man makes them toys
And after man has made everything,
everything he can
You know that man makes money
to buy from other man

This is a man's world
But it wouldn't be nothing,
nothing without a woman or a girl

He's lost in the world of man
He's lost in bitterness

Monday, March 02, 2009

Friendships(and why I deleted you) require;

Comfort ability.

Hard to say, but I've had all the sweet talking, make up wearing (in excess), too tight high heel stepping woman for a life time. Does this make me shallow?

No, for I am just lazy enough, to not want anything too overtly complicated, when real joy is simple enough. Me, I’d welcome friends who can actually think calmly, speak softly, ask real questions, follow complete directions, walk over a mile, and then, not pass out when I dance with their younger sister.

A one that’s a human being 1st. who happens to be a themselves always. Someone that knows that sarcasm is not witticism! Can I say someone who is deep thinker and alluring? Someone who is passive and giving?

Someone who has faults?
And strengths too?

Me, I would be pleased with someone who realizes that no two men are alike, and that therefore some males are actually just that, not men!

Aside from that, in reading what I usually write, there should be no question(s) as to why superficial nonsense, and outright B/s in not fundamental to continued friendship.

In the between though, please, be blessed as you go....

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

In the days of lost jobs and less money;

Some people, in all honesty, are wonderful partners when everything is going well, but, when things get turned inside out, these very same people turn into quite the selfish beings, when things take a turn for the worse.

You, you may be enjoying your partner while he or she is happy in the moment, but be honest, don’t you truly just want to get away from, and/or even yell not so passionately this time, at your partner when he or she is giving you a hard time?

And yes, I am leading this into what is sometimes accepted as: the “fair weather” friend. Which, oddly enough, is not what a partner is supposed to be for you, and yes, if I hear one more insipid reference to the “friends w/benefits” scenario, trust me, I will not be happy!

Get a grip!

It's a fact that sometimes your partner will take an emotional dump, that is, he or she will be unhappy about something, and to you, it doesn't look like it will be over in just a few minutes!

You, you may want to improve or fix this situation for them, and that can, sometimes work.However, another approach is to allow the moment to pass, without your participation. Sure, you should support them, remembering what you love about them, and stay centered and content within that love you have for them, and, know that they will bounce back.

In fact, you holding a centered space can help them bounce back!

In contrast, going “down with them”, getting unhappy too, buying into their sad story or getting angry, may of course just make things worse. I mean, the whole point is that They want you to go “down” with them, hoping of course that you’re not aware of the following little known fact: Sometimes people want to take an emotional dump!

And sometimes, they will want company.

And oddly enough, if you’re willing to enjoy your partner, and be with him or her when a “down cycle” hits; that is, to go down with him or her, it can be a very intimate thing. Obviously, you wouldn't want to do this all the time.

Yet, sometimes, it's a gift to your partner to allow them to have their pity parties, but NOT to go down with them. Sometimes it's best to stay “UP”, and hold the space for when they are ready to feel better. But for a change, you might try rejecting this downward plunge into an emotional abyss with them, consciously knowing, that when they are looking to go down or have a bad time, your most important role, is to maintain your own sanity, for in that way, your maintaining yourself.

Love is not how badly I can be treated,
Nor is it how low I’ll go to keep you!

Love is about comfort and stability.

Love is about caring and commitment.
Love, therefore is also about reality!

And in being real, love is not about allowing another to wreck your joy.

You, you be blessed, and be(come) a blessing to others.

Never forgetting that in this life,
Joy is not a given;

Nor should it be something easily consumed by another!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Today

Two hearts that share emotions are indeed two souls so close, they touch.
Two spirits so joined from within, one to the other
that each soars upon the energy, released from just the other.

Today

Reflecting on a connection that's grown,
two hearts, now, learning to beat as one.

The sweetest memories of times together,
leading into moments, never to be undone.

Reflections of our early days,
not unlike children that grew too fast.

Reflections of our endless potential,
for a Valentine's Day Love,
that would actually last.

Tomorrow

Living without fear,
tomorrow; living without the regret of tears.

Tomorrow; learning just to live
For within this, friendships become love
As in this, lovers will forever remain friends…

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Break up, break downs(edited):

In the beginning(s), God had created man, who the subsequently finding himself alone, realized that he should have a companion. Seeing this, God was kind enough to craft from the man, Woman. Another who from within the man, could stand with him and complete his life from the opposite, and/or at least internal point of view.

Marriage thus was consummated!

Oddly enough though, marriage, just like the seasons, has changed recently from what a man needed, and is often no longer a real union of the souls, as it is a contractual agreement between the partners. Question then, do not geese have a life long partner?

Why then should a Woman not have the same?

Is she not as capable, as steadfast, as a bird?
Are not men able to put aside their worldly ambitions and seek to hold dear the ambitions spoken and honorably contained in their vows and thus should be commitments towards their wives? If then, "to have and to hold" is not a slogan, then, it must be an attainable goal. For to come full circle in my own thought(s), the goal should be consummated with another, not just someone outside myself.

The goal of marriage was supposed to be; the relinquishing of your will, to the power and strength of another, and so to achieve this goal, consideration must be given to the one with whom you seek to wed; Is he a believer in the premise of marriage, or just a one wanting to hold you within the framework of a relational contract. As for the woman, does she posses the desire to see you through the ages, or only a one seeking that which is good and safe in the now?

Marriage, oddly enough is about forever.
Forever my man.
Forever your woman.
Forever!

Anything less than that is not a genuine marriage at all.
Anything less than that is actually just another relational construct for the here and now, not tomorrow and always. Which could be good too, but not for the reason you were crafted from within me though!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Valentines day(and life after the bloom);

Relationships work beautifully when the man focuses much of his attention on the woman’s growth and development. In this way, the woman is lit up and happy with his kindness and direction, and this ease of happiness flows through to his life as well.

As I'm sure you well know:
"If mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!"

Therefore, it's in both of your interests for him to learn how to pay attention, and understand your needs and wants. In fact he wants to know this (!), even if instinctively, he’s afraid to admit it. However, it's highly likely that your partner has not been trained in how to pay proper attention to his woman. The result is that way too often, both of you focus on the global relationship, which just leaves the woman frustrated and wanting more.

More of what? Attention and direction from her man!

Yes - attention. As a woman, you should have it, you deserve it, and you'll both have way much more pleasure, as he learns how to provide it.

In fact - he wants you to be happy! He just doesn't always know how to best accomplish this. OR - he hasn't yet discovered how to win from giving you this attention.Honestly, in our shallow, conditioned world, much of a woman’sattractiveness or value in society comes from two sources: 1) her youthful beauty, and 2) her ability to bear children.

Unfortunately, both diminish with age, with the result that a woman might be considered less 'marketable' as she gets older. (By contrast, a man gets more marketable as he gets older. As he not only accumulates wealth, power and experience; distinguished when the grey start to appear at his temples)

The stigma that exists for women who are unattached before their youth and fertility start to diminish can cause them to be devalued by society. With this information, we can understand why a woman may feel pressure to attract and 'keep' the man in the relationship using whatever resources she has, including having sex with her partner out of a sense of obligation, instead of respect and reverance.

But in reality, the best way to prosper in a relationship with a man, is to educate yourself and him about what you already know as a woman, and about the things that you need to learn in order to be a better woman, not just for him, but for your children, your family, and yourself!

In this, well-meaning men (masters of the world contained within the relationship) can compensate for, or reverse this by paying more positive and effective attention to the women in their lives. An exercise you can do to help facilitate this is to schedule one hour with your partner (or a close female friend if you are currently single) within the next three days. Mention the issues discussed above, as it is youunderstand them, and then, ask her what it's like to grow up being a woman. LISTEN ;-)

Learn how best to discuss your own feelings and desires with your man, so that he can learn how you came to be, and who you’re willing to become within the context of your relationship together.

For practice is how we learn best, and to be affective teachers of those we love, we’re going to have to understand how best to translate our needs into words that can be readily understood and put into practice, in our lives, in our loves, in all of our relationships.

Valentines Day approaches. Please don't let it go down to cheap candy and plastic sentiments. Reach deep, willing yourself to learn how to love, and to surrender yourself to that love in a way that nourishes and sustains your growth as we both continue to age, gracefully!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Love, sometimes;

Is nothing more than air,
and yet, unlike breathing
love is a choice that we have to make.

Air, not unlike love keeps us vibrant and alive,
but love, just like air is near to us, and yet we are
very often, unwilling to accept that it exist!

How, I wonder can this be?

Air, being the surface that my planes fly across,
the invisible force that keeps my kites aloft,
is as real as anything else that I can't see!

And therefore love, love being the current that flows within me,
the unyielding force that keeps my heart intact and my joy exalted,
is just as great a reality as air, even though unlike air, me, I have to be love, in order to see love and accept it.

And in that, fear has no room to hide from it
for like the air, when we believe,
love is actually everywhere!