Are two things that I've been wondering about lately.
And yes, these thoughts have a lot to do with the fact that a "past" friend allowed herself to be turned into the Singapore version, of an American serviceman's housewife, but I think, more than the fact that he grew to hate her himself, she also was lost in this world of deception.
Not so much because she was $20,000.00 worth of extra parts and pieces, but more so because in playing this part(role), she had lost her own heart, her own place in the universe, and in that, who wanted "her" really?
Me, I counsel many couples who claim that their partner(s) have lost that loving feeling, or that the intimacy isn't what it used to be, when in truth, what's missing(or discovered) is the person, that the other had believed in, fell in love with, gave themselves over to, wasn't the essence of the person, but just a role they were willing to play, but now, no longer would they perform it freely!
Superficial relationships, whether they be about age, or money, or pure physical lust, in the end, only cause problems for each of the participants. Sure, I know you think you can turn it off and on at will. And I'm sure that you still believe that you're the only one who knows that you're lonelier than your smile reveals, but for me, what with summer coming to a close, I'm just going to keep my closet set on maximum clean, and wish that you would also do the same.
He's only going to reject you in the end,
just like all the others before him did, and, for the same reason!
So why put up this false self?
Why even put up with this false sense
of what kind of woman, you really are?
Be you.
Be proud of you!
Be someone you too can love.
Me, I'll be on sabbatical until the 2nd. of September.
Feel free to call if you're in the area.
Otherwise, at least wear modest clothes until the sun retreats.
About Me
- Edward Thomas
- More than just a Man, but also, a human being as well; Me, I'm just as often found @ the center of the struggle, but never as someones absent minded follower. True enough, I love my Mother, and though I'm eager to be perfect, I actually prefer to be nice, than have my own way! When asked, my closest friends would say that I am often in the company of the wind: The Wind(a dear friend of mine since birth) and I are often near and around you, and though, we're not always seen or felt near you, it's always better understood within you. Odd I know, but true nonetheless. True, not unlike the truth contained withing the thought of me flying would appear, but then again, when the wind wills, well, often I've awoken in strange places and had to patiently await his return, so as to get back home again. Luckily, he never lingers long, for it's hard enough explaining my discernment (of)to people. Imagine the after shock of a early morning phone call from Cleveland???
