Great questions all;

And yet, how do I answer them?

Surely, it's much better to be loved, than to have a one who can only smell your lust. And yes, as long as the sun shines, in order to enjoy another, it will always be better have them want the inner you, rather than need to be within you.

But, some just are really needy!

For me then, on the other side of the upcoming holiday, it's just easier to work through the week, than it is to worry about the soon to be, weekend, but then again, I like change. Which isn't my way of saying I can't be still, more than it's my real desire, to not become stagnate.

For you, and for all those like yourself, even I, and not that it has to be hard to know the difference(s), between a man who wants you, while he so busy explaining why you're just what he's looking for. But try this; realize that what he's looking @, might not be you at all. For when his hands are upon you, and his lust is in front of you, how is it that you're even in his natural view? Now that's a better question, than any answer I can provide.

Life, like love has more to do with how you feel, than, how you feel.
If you get my overall meaning!

Yes, even I love how another looks, but then again, even I know that when the rains pour down, even the most durable top soil can be washed away, under the pounding!

Love yourself, and others will want too as well.

Love your outer appearance, and even I'll seek to impale you on my manly desire, while just as easily forgetting that the real you isn't just something that I behold, as it is a someone that I affectionately, empirically, eternally, hold.

And on that note, off to the studio.

Which, if I didn't mention it before, provides me with a means to tell where it is any, and everyone is listening from(internet streaming is like that). So to say that you listened over the weekend(s) past, only reveals that between us, for you, there's an unnecessary need to say what isn't necessarily true.

What a shame that is.

But then again, it could be the reason why he used the drapes
instead of a warm cloth...

Just for the hope that lingers within;

"Tell me you don't sleep at night, I know
Because of how things have been
Tell me how you just don't trust your life to someone

Don't trust that love can win
Just as sure as God lives in my heart I'll say
Take heart, it won't say this way

If there's one thing you can count on
If there's one thing you can know for sure
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

I'm sure it's hard to be where you are now
Won't say I've been there before
But I'll be at your side in silence
Words are wasted before a broken heart
Where I've failed in the past to be there for you
You'll find this truth comin' through

If there's one thing you can count on
If there's one thing you can know for sure
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change, oh yeah
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

Oh, don't give up,
Well, I've seen some hard things
I never thought that I would ever smile again
Holdin' on when I feel half-hearted
I keep my faith without a way to explain it

'Cause I believe it won't always be like this everyday
Hold on, and trust what I say
If there's one thing
If there's one thing

If there's one thing God has promised
Things are gonna change,
If there's one thing you can count on
Things are gonna change

Things are gonna change

Gotta have a little faith
Maybe add a little trust
Add a lot o' love
You see your gonna rise above the things that are so rough
'Cause we have a hope
Things are gonna change"


Bryan Duncan

I've also learned that:

The beauty of caring, isn't so much in being the one cared for, or about even. For the beauty of caring is how it reminds me of my own humanity, and grace. And as the world spins presently underneath us, that's a good feeling that can't be readily packaged, and/or found locally!

Anyhoo, busy is what you do, and I'm sure your life's still a hand full right now, but, maybe one day, when you've backed away from those flashing lights that blind you still, I know you'll find more than enough time to share a moment and that hug, which will warm more than both of our lives.

Me, I'll continue to live with the eagerness which keeps us both tethered, though disconnected in this moment, for I know the future awaits us, in the distance unseen!


So be blessed my busy one.


And yes, I miss your voice(words) too....

In the distance

That has grown between us, I'm still stuck with wondering what you're thinking. Stuck with wondering if this is a barrier you're erecting, or just an extended seperation, until you can come to terms with that part of yourself, that you've yet to reveal to me. Still, I do think about you my reluctant one.

Wondering what the weather is like around you. If the dog(cat) is happy, things that I can only imagine, but, I like to imagine what life is like outside of my own, but still, I wonder about you.

Well, we have Red Rain(Christian Rcck band from New Zealand) coming in today around 4:30, concert @ 6:00, so I have a busy day ahead, but before I lost myself in my own world, I just wanted to walk across the bridge to your own and say hello...