Monday, and I was thinking about choice;

Indeed, when you can, most everything you want can be yours, but the choice isn't so much about the moment, as it is the thoughts that follow after.

Me, I just like what I like.
Like whom I enjoy.
Choose to do those things,
be @ those locations,
share those emotions(and more),
as it enhances my global experience!

Yes, there are other ways to accomplish the same results.
And yet, me, I choose what pleases me most.

Like you....

Closer friends, produce better results.

Sometimes,
we need to move ahead of the circumstances,
by allowing ourselves to separate from the past,
freeing the future to take hold of the here and now!

As for myself,
changing seasons
always awakens the desire
to see myself more clearly.

You, I wish the same result.

Beautiful(to me) is more than a word;

Not sleeping again last night:


Love
Like air,
knows only
the inhalation of itself.

Me,
me,
I breath deeply!

Mostly
because
anything
less is death,

But
also
because
that's what I choose.

Life!

Most assuredly I am;

Happy & Secure
Confident & Cheeky
Pretty straight forward & Independent
Successfully an Optimist
Spontaneous & Capricious
Open-minded & Real

Unfortunately(for some);
I really enjoy Laughter
And I absolutely love it when people make me laugh!
And people with a quick wit and a fast mouth, don't always excite me.
Luckily, traveling and experiencing new places and people does though.
Also, I’m a good listener & An avid conversationalist
With good Intellect & Romantic fantasies galore!

What I require(& Desire) is;
Honesty & Integrity
Validity & Compassion
Thoughtfulness & Consideration
Adequate Chemistry & Good personal hygiene is a must!

And whereas I have a lot to share,

I'd love to experience another I can look into, and learn from.
I know, but life really is so short,
and there's so much more to appreciate,
when you respect and enjoy another person.

Me, going into the new week,
I'm looking forward to experiencing a person
who's enough like me(but different) to enjoy all of that, & more.
And yes, we're more than just mySpace affiliated,

But everyone needs a gentle reminder.

Even me!

The Way a Christian should Love:

1 Corinthians 13

13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, [1] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; [2] 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Superficial Relationship & Stress

Are two things that I've been wondering about lately.

And yes, these thoughts have a lot to do with the fact that a "past" friend allowed herself to be turned into the Singapore version, of an American serviceman's housewife, but I think, more than the fact that he grew to hate her himself, she also was lost in this world of deception.

Not so much because she was $20,000.00 worth of extra parts and pieces, but more so because in playing this part(role), she had lost her own heart, her own place in the universe, and in that, who wanted "her" really?

Me, I counsel many couples who claim that their partner(s) have lost that loving feeling, or that the intimacy isn't what it used to be, when in truth, what's missing(or discovered) is the person, that the other had believed in, fell in love with, gave themselves over to, wasn't the essence of the person, but just a role they were willing to play, but now, no longer would they perform it freely!

Superficial relationships, whether they be about age, or money, or pure physical lust, in the end, only cause problems for each of the participants. Sure, I know you think you can turn it off and on at will. And I'm sure that you still believe that you're the only one who knows that you're lonelier than your smile reveals, but for me, what with summer coming to a close, I'm just going to keep my closet set on maximum clean, and wish that you would also do the same.

He's only going to reject you in the end,
just like all the others before him did, and, for the same reason!

So why put up this false self?
Why even put up with this false sense
of what kind of woman, you really are?

Be you.
Be proud of you!
Be someone you too can love.

Me, I'll be on sabbatical until the 2nd. of September.
Feel free to call if you're in the area.
Otherwise, at least wear modest clothes until the sun retreats.

Cracked Wide Open(by Nicole Luongo):

"Slowly
over time
piece by piece
my heart
was
cracked wide open
by your hollow words
manipulative lies
and
Oscar-worthy guise

It took me a long time
too many years
to get wise, to realize
I am - and will always be -
a prize

The irony is -
we've both been cut
you were sliced open
by a scalpel
cancer
the cause of your pain - removed;
your stitches will heal

I was cracked wide open by you -
my heart's cancer
the never-ending pain
is all too real

The pen is my scalpel
words are my stitches
because
this wide open crack
that is now my heart
desperately needs to heal."

3/19/09.


For,
as I always seek to remind you,
chasing(or being chased by) vanity
always leads to less than the beauty I offered you!

Rumi said(and words to take into the weekend);

"...And, just the moment
when you are all confused...
leaps forward a voice...
'hold me close,
I am Love,
I am always yours'..."

Therefore:

Heat is
fiery
red
hot
passionate

Love is:
forever
patient
kind
strong.

heat
plus love
equals
True Romance.


Which is better w/friends!

Yesterday

Love,

not unlike the sun itself is more than just warm,
more than just consistent,
more than just above you,
always looking down.

For love is,
and in that,
your assurance is more than just hope itself!

Me,
I'm just happy
your happier still.....

What if you used your imigination(s) to help others?

"The Italian Tomato Garden

An Italian man lived alone in New Jersey.
He wanted to plant his annual tomato garden,
but it was very difficult work, as the ground was hard.

His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison.

The father wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:

Dear Vincent,

I am feeling pretty sad, because it looks like I won't be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me, like in the old days.

Love, Papa

A few days later he received a letter from his son:


Dear Pop,

Don't dig up that garden.
That's where the bodies are buried.

Love, Vinnie

@ 4 a.m the next morning, FBI agents and police arrived and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.

That same day the father received another letter from his son:

Dear Pop,

Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now,
That's the best I could do under the circumstances!

I love you,

Vinnie"


Yes, in this we see the creative genius of a one who has much humor, and uses his circumstances to bring about a wanted desire by another, and yet, using only his words, change is manifested.


You, if you really stopped squandering your resources on reluctance and denial, even you could do such a wonder for another, but 1st., you'll have to accept the fact that circumstances do not dictate outcome(s).


Words dictate, and in that way, your efforts are increased;

genesis 1:14

Why is it that you can't find(or hold onto) Love;

If you are not aware of who you are,
You therefore can not be loved.

For in not knowing ourselves,
we will be fear.

In love we expand,
in fear we shrink.

In fear we become closed,
in love, we flower completely open!

In fear we doubt,
in love we trust.

In fear we become lonely,
in love we never disappear.

In love we admire the trees, birds, clouds, sun,
and all the stars that live within us.

Whereas in fear, we disregard all that we should surrender to,
and only give ourselves over the darkness that love abandons!

Love is when you have the desire to know your inner self,
and in that way, all can love you too, no matter the contents!

Fear, as I've said so often before, is not your friend.
Love on the other hand, is the friend that you've always wanted become.



Be blessed then as the weeks ahead unfolds all around you,
and remember, love is the free gift that no matter how you pay,
is yours to keep, no regardless what anyone else has to say about it.....

Firewerks and other thought(s);

Though this day reminds us of the birthing and subsequent Independence gaining of the United States of America.

Are you celebrating you're own personal freedom(s)?
Are you even free?

Of course, please, have a happy and safe holiday weekend with your family and friends, and please pray for our troops abroad, and those still able to be close to home, but also, take a moment and remember the cost, the continued sacrifice, and reflect on all the work that's still left to be done!

Happy national holiday.

But honestly, are you truly free?

Take this to bed w/you;

"We were laughing in a daydream
With the world beneath our feet
And the sun smiled on the water
Where the sky's and the ocean meet

We were spellbound
Ohh spellbound

We were listening down on the rainbow
As the leaves fell to the ground
Whispering as they tumble
And the wind laughed at the sound

We were spellbound
Ohh spellbound

We were children in a garden
Where the flowers kiss the sky
And the birds sang out in wonder
As the day went sailing by

We were spellbound
Mmmm spellbound
Ohhh spellbound
Mmmm spellbound
Ohh spellbound"


Robin Trower

I loved her because?

Perhaps like me, you have an ex?
And maybe even like me, you wonder how and why you ever married(or dated)
that particular person, but then again, maybe you don't.

Me, I loved her for many reasons, but today,
I was reminded of the most compelling.

Words.

Words was something we shared.
Three sons and lots of spanish champagne as well,
but mostly, she inspired me creatively with her words.

Not all of which she appreciated at the time.

Nonetheless;

I was struggling with a riff, and she provided this retort:
Perhaps she says, your not so deep, as the world is so shallow(?)!

And in all honesty, I agreed!

As for myself, I realized she was right.
Not about my depth so much,
but damn, there are some shallow folks amongst us.

Me, I love her still.
For words will always hold us together,
but in all honesty, I'll never love another without them.

For words are what we speak into each other,
when all else has failed to heal the rift that exist
between those in whom we comprehend
and the shallow few that take
up the rest of our day.

Thanks ex.

Hope your day ended as good as mine.....


Foot Note:

Maybe it's true, nobody loves the ones they leave behind.

But me, I don't feel that way.

Sure, there are a few I hated in the end, but in all honesty, love is not a choice, so much as a conviction. And me, once I accept that as the reality within myself, the love never goes away, or completely dissapears.

And odd how many private notes I received from people who couldn't relate.

And yet, to some, love is a feeling.
Which it's not, but that's not the point.

I loved Jan 1st. then Marcia.
Pamelynne I married!

True love never goes away.
And if you ever felt it, you knew that already....

Time((outside the gypsy flies away)?);

Time, not unlike love,
is an abstraction that only the person(s) experiencing either
can know for sure what it means,
or how it relates to the reality all around them.

Questions then,
not unlike the answers that surround them,
are subject to our interpretation and/or perspective,
which makes it harder still to distinguish darkness,
from a mere shadow!

As for myself, time therefore is irrelevant.

For in living pass the past,
I have used it all, already.

Best just to breath
and continue on the sojourn
into (the)tomorrow my friend(s)…

Me, I've always liked the concept of What If

What if:

"If love came to you,
Light and silent,
like a butterfly,
would you even notice?
Or would you continue searching for something better?"

What if;

"If love came to you in a friendly, constant way
Like a flower or plant you grow and cultivate yourself,
would you see it for all that it could become?
Or would you walk on past
still searching for the bells and whistles?"

What if;

"If love came to you fast and explosive,
Like the fireworks on 4th of July...
would you walk away
wanting to light yet anothers spark?
or could you work at keeping the spark alive
when the flame begins to smolder?"

"What if;

Love came with me, strong and true,
wanting to be with you
but knowing
right now we can not?

Would you wait for me?
Or would you turn to another closer by location,
though our global connection still remains?"

As for myself,
whereas life is a giant what if,
me, I'm constantly waiting.

And in that, I think the best is yet to come.....

You know how I love you(?);

And you're not sure why?

Well, on this day, perhaps you should consider why
others are unable to love you in the way(s) that I do,
and in that, you'll understand why.

For me, love is the reality of anothers being.
Not how they look,
nor how the feel,
or even, how they feel next to me.

Love, not unlike a mother,
is an entity, that fulfills a promise that in actuality,
we have no control over, for it was prgrammed from that start!

You know how I love you?

How my love radiants all around and within you?

This kind of love I give because it is not mine to hold on to!

You, you I love you because in doing so,
I complete the promise that came with your birth.

Not that I was you father
though I am.

Not that I'm your mother,
though, I often am that too.

You,
you know how I love you?

You,
you I love w/out reservation.

Which is the promise of birth,
even if your mother didn't get the memo.....

Oddly enough,

No matter how many times we think about it, the truth remains that what we really want, is another who cares enough about us to listen. A one who delights in our company, enjoys our subtleties, and embraces the outline of our convictions.

Should that not be what you think, I understand.

But I thought it was worth sharing....

It has been confirmed, today(everyday) He is risin!

Me, I am blessed by the day, and the worship and teachings at church as well, so my heart, my heart is filled with Joy right now. And you, how are you today?

Often of course, I wonder about you, and wish that you would write more, and yet, I know you're busy, so I smile anyway.

Be good as you go today, and remember, the next man, even if he isn't me, he should be as good to you, as I (am)would have been, so please, choose wisely, and react, accordingly....

And Yes, April arrived a few days ago,

And as I started work in the gardens, began to clean up the train track lay out, and plotted a strategy for the coming season, me, me I looked back over the past winter and all that wasn't completed from my last year here in the valley, and yet, I found reason(s) to smile:

As the sun returns, and the grasses begin to burn,
me, me I'll still have you.

And though you've married another and you both have a new baby to enjoy me, me I still have your friendship!

And though the economy is forcing you to flower into the pixie you should have always been, still, when you went home, thousands of miles away, I knew how much you missed me, and me, me, I still have you near.

And of course, no matter the number of pretty boys calling, or those who chase you around the car show circuit, in the end, as the day concludes, you're always alone(save for the children), and in that way, I still have you too!

Many a friend, from Spokane to Paris Hobbs, to Alberta, and beyond, keep me connected, keep my words infected with love and joy and bliss and truth, that as I looked out over the gardens I'll plant this year, I knew one thing was surely to come to pass during the season that sun returns to the valley, me, me I'll be on the road a lot this year, and as I stop to rest, I truly hope you'll be there when I call to say that me, me, I'm right outside, come, let's play while the sun shines brightly, upon us both.

And who knows, maybe this is the year that changes it all?
Me, me I can only hope and wait with glee.....